x 10:05 PM

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

x 7:03 PM

went sch slightly late due to the rain and traffic jam,
suppose to meet luvis for breakfast but didnt make it in the end.
she bought breakfast for me though =)
lesson ended at like 11+ today.
went to acc. luvis and her classmates for awhile.
dous came =))
jrayden and jahrell came to join us
but walked away aft awhile,leavin me and grace.
walked ard the sch and waited for Luvis lesson to end,
thot she can send my dous to tution with me.
in the end dou took cab.
we sent fish and dou out.
fish was funny today,stoned and luvis the stone.
stayed in sch's library,studied sum marketing.
Luvis came and brought me hm aft that.
hope Luvis will not be tt affected by wat i say...

x 6:47 PM

i'm sad,depressed.
i just wan you to move on along with me,
i dun wan to be able to move on when you are alone at a corner
get it?
i thot we will be fine,
i tried to act normal but you acted different unexpectedly.
i thot i will be the one who will feel awkward.
i cried,i did cry quite badly yesterday,
but since i hav decided to move on,
i am goin to be strong.
i hope you will be strong too since we both made such a decision.
hope things will be back to normal real soon.

*i will move on.

x 6:40 PM

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

thanks for bein tt sweet to me.
thanks for always being there for me.
thanks for caring,
thanks for those sweet stuff you bought for me.
thanks for passing me your windbreaker.
thanks for sendin me here and there.
thanks for all the entertainments on the phone.

lastly thanks for tellin me how you feel.
its over and i am and will be alright.
hope you wun feel bad becos it is not your fault.
tis kind of things cannot be forced.
i will move on well before you know it.

*will move on well

x 11:38 PM

"how can i give someone happiness when i dont know whats the definition of happiness?"

hrms...
so tired to think abt this...
feel so draggy abt it.
assure yourself before sayin anything to me.

x 11:15 AM

Sunday, May 22, 2005

i know its not possible
but why is there a phrase nth is impossible?

x 10:50 PM

wide smiles just love neoprints!

x 1:46 PM

"i don't have the words to make you feel better
but i do have the arms to give you a hug
ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about
and i've a heart..

a heart that's aching to see you smile again"

tts like so sweet of you!really.
dun think so much silly!your headaches are gettin worse!~
thank you!

x 1:35 AM

he kissed me thrice!so irresistable heh

x 1:04 AM

just look at him!!

x 1:03 AM

sam's nephew is so so cute!!

x 1:02 AM

felt so much better today!
went tannin tis mornin at sentosa with mea!
so happy havent seen her for a long time,lols.
wanted to saok up the sun but it wasnt strong enough,
dun think i got darker...mayb a little
took many pics,mea look a little funny in one pic we took.
she look like wonder woman with her hair all flew up.
the rain came down..boo...
startin to get a little sick,
will be fine soon heh...
mea and i headed to PS aft tt,
met jahrell.
thanks for passin me your windbreaker!
so touched!
both us us headed for my house den to sam's chalet aft tt.
yeye,zhenhui,esther,elizabeth,xy,mea and sam were there.
HAPPY BDAE SAM!!
thanks for bein in my life!
smiles =))
headed hm aft tt.
monkey is gettin sick soon,must get well soon k monkey!!!

x 12:38 AM

Saturday, May 21, 2005

sharon and mea soakin up the sun AH!!rahhs!

x 7:50 PM

aft tannin,mea actin cool!!not like me =p

x 7:46 PM

Friday, May 20, 2005

you all sound like you all wan me to get into a relationship.
i dunno why...or rather you,not you all...

x 11:35 PM

Thursday, May 19, 2005

i know you dun do wat you preach,
it is quite obvious!

x 11:43 PM

how i wish i could help,
how i wish to see tt real wide smile on your face everyday.
you may be smiling everyday but i know you aint right.
puttin on a fake front doesnt mean tt everything is okay,
you hav to face situations eventually.
you said you are used to it already
but is tis wat you wan?
to be used to not trustin anyone includin yourself,
just becos of wat has happened in the past?
at least half a yr has past,
maybe you shld just really move on.

*its impossible tt you wun affect me becos i care.

x 11:36 PM

HAPPY 17TH BDAE DOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU RAWK SHARON'S WORLD!
you are one of the best person on earth tt i will never ever regret knowing.
i love you!
i thank God for you grace.
thank you for always bein there,goin through my ups and downs with me.
hope you like the bear.
I LOVE YOU!

x 12:26 AM

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

i just cried
but i feel like cryin again.
there are still tears in my eyes.
i feel sad,totally depressed,
lost,totally confused.

YOUR FAULT!
it is all your fault,
you made me feel tis way.
you shared so much memories with me
and yet you wan to leave now.
can you bear to leave?
becos the fact is i cant.

x 11:23 PM

I will never want to leave you,
i dun wan to lose a friend like you.

you are like so near yet so far away,

wonder wats on your mind right now.
dunno why you are reacting this way.
i dunno why i cried aft readin your entry.
mayb its just me bein too sensitive.
or mayb....i dunno.

remember as you promised!
you cannot do tis to me!
all i know is i dun wan to lose you,
dun wan to drift frm you,
i dun wan us to distant.



*now and forever,
you are an imp person in my life

x 11:05 PM

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Jam and hop was very fun!
had a great time dancin with SBM pple
especially Vivian,beewee,kayly,lynn blablabla
oh got to know tt my class chunzi is a very good dancer too.
so proud of my class,the dancin queen and king are both frm MK0501!
congrats Nad and Veejay,you all were great!
anyway went for supper at toa payoh
den jahrell and i send jess hm.
both of us headed PS for movie aft tt.
On our journey we met jane and luvis,
didnt see luvis at first,den she suddenly talk,
scare me and jahrell.
we watched The Amityville
quite scary but lucky jahrell was there lols.
the movie ended at like 3plus den jahrell sent me hm.
was real tired, slept at 4+ and woke up at 1pm heh.
happy,took lots of pics yesterday.
stayed hm slackin today.

*walkin ahead alone

x 9:09 PM

Thursday, May 12, 2005

"you"
in the last sentence of my last entry
dun refer to *******
so pls dun assume.
i have not spotted my "you" yet,
i dun think i will ever too...

*afraid to spot my you.

x 2:30 PM

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

i know so far i wun love anyone as much as i loved you,
but it is all over in the past and i am gettin through.

am afraid to let anybody step into my world,
becos i know its diff. for me to find true love.

i dun wan to be hurt again like i was in the past,
i dun wan to be sad again becos of anyone.

deep in my heart i know i need sumone to hold on to
but once again i am afraid to fall in love with you.

*whoever you are

x 12:30 AM

......
sorry...

i really dunno wats wrong with me today.....
i am not suppose to feel everything this way.....

*afraid to fall for anyone

x 12:05 AM

Saturday, May 07, 2005

wats so good abt drinkin?
i dun get it,i really dun.
why must you use drinkin to dull your senses?
does it help?
you are living in self deniel.
aft you drink ,you will hav headaches and feel like throwin up.
wats so good abt it?
why must you always make me worry for you?
worry for your safety,worrying abt your headaches,worryin abt everythin.
we may not be wat you wan us to be but i still care for you.
you know it.
den why must you still do this to yourself?i dun get it.

x 11:25 PM

tjc's chi drama performance was quite nice,there was a quite pretty gal actin.
went with my monkey to watch it yesterday,none of us slept.
den headed with grace and yali for supper.
sum man taught us how to play the tradition five stones when we were eatin...
den monkey sent me hm in cab yesterday.
monkey seemed a little sad yesterday...she was quite quiet,
dun really know wats goin on her mind.
i was a little bad mood too,wonder why...maybe monkey bein sad affected me...

didnt go out today till like 6+,
went to J8 to meet crush for dinner.
i reached first and went walkin ard alone.
den crush came,i bought a t-shirt frm New World Order,
it is quite cute i guess...
den i bought crush her b'dae present in advance,
bought her a bag
haha...
a familia bung was workin there...
anyway the she and the boss was quite nice,
we stayed in tt shop for quite awhile to do sum bargaining.
we ate KFC and took neos!
so happy tt i went out with my crush alone today,
found out that i really miss those times
we went tution together...

x 11:12 PM

zhu,i really dunno wats wrong with you
but i still wan to say tt i am worried,dunno why you never pick up my calls.
wat is wrong now?why is the whole world blamin you?
i dun get it.i dun understand.
If you think tt you are not wrong den dun blame yourself for nth you hav done wrong.
why admit it when you didnt do it?
it will only make yourself irritated.

you are bein unfair to me lah!tell me you are fine but not pickin up my calls.
hope tt you will pick up my call soon.

x 11:05 PM

Thursday, May 05, 2005

hey...
i dunno wat is your prob,
think tt the whole world is leavin you..
no one cares for you
den wat am i??
kor,i really dun wan anythin to happen to you.
hope you are doin fine,
i am worried...
you take care alright...

x 11:39 PM

alrite now abt today.heh
tis mornin my monkey send me to school!
whoopie
and she SURE gave me a surprise
hahas
made breakfast for her heh..
but dun think is very nice lah...

took a cab to sch with her and i paid the cab fare...!
she treat me to breakfast though..woke up damm early lah
lols
went and try to complete my electure in sch aft tutorial today.
monkey was with me again.
today she no sch lah!
so envious of her and jess!
lols
den sum misunderstanding took place btw me and jess
but we will be fine
no worries for us,
like i said,only misunderstandin.
went to the movies with my classmates.
i kept scaring vivi haha
we watched house of wax and took neo today
so happy heh
but was abit late for lecture though...
heh den got hm aft tt
had a soso day

x 11:15 PM

haven been updating my blog lately
so i shall start updatin frm yesterday !...

yesterday didnt go sch!
cuz got elearning but had prob loggin on the lecture so...
in the end never do lor hehs
den went towning with monkey,jess,swee and zhudage
lols
monkey,jess and zhu ate sum stuff while me and swee drank sum soup.
den we went cold storage to find POIFULL JELLYBEAN eat.
actually cannot find de den was very sad but MONKEY and JESS bought it for me!
brought big smiles to my face
heh
den monkey seperated frm us......!!made me so sad...
hrms...but we were smsin throughout the time when we were seperated lols
the rest of us den went to cine kbox and sang frm like 2+ to 7.
den went paragon thai express and makan.
had a great day yesterday lols
end of day!

x 10:48 PM

Sunday, May 01, 2005

sorry jessica,guess its the only thing i can say now...hope you wun be angry for long yah...

dunno wat happen to you dunno why you suddenly bad mood hrms... hope you'll be fine.

and zavier da ge you say you wun drink right?better dun.

x 12:27 AM